Primrose Path

The Eyes Tear,
The Heart is in Pain,
But (with my tongue) I will only say that which is pleasing to Allah.

O Allah, to you I leave all matters.

http://masafzal.blogspot.com/  

Emotions are hard to control.

Bila Aain nak boleh ckp macam quote kat atas tu?

Tepuk dada, tanyalah iman, Aain.

All the best Pharma, korg.

Doakan smua bleh jwb~ ;)

-AenPozi.

Arashi says--- =)

Nur Azlyn Ahmad Fauzi!
=P

oh.oh...ta-ta-yokk~ apa Alin dah buat?

=D Lol, kidding, Poeng~ <3 :-*

nk post ni je~ sbb Aen suka, n I wouldn't hve liked them if you didn't masukkan smua lgu diorg in my mp4. oleh itu, arigato!

You're right, their songs really do put you in a good mood. =)
(evn tho the 1st time Aen dgr ni I went 'mbahahaha *snort-what-the-*snort-mbaha, aksi pelik-snort*)
Lol. They're awesome, nak taknak, ter-suka jugak~ teehee

Luv always, Poeng <3
Aen@Alex.



p/s: utk kwn2 yg tgk. ketahuilah bhwa smua anti-depressant drugs yg dh blajar tu boleh dilenyapkn dr dunia klu smua org boleh tke a daily dose of Arashi. =P =P =P XD

Kuatkn smgt!~
Next exam, PHARMA! Good Luck smua! ;D

-Aen.

sorry ukhti

This morning ada teguran; my last post was inappropriate. (refer to entry sblm ni klu curious what i'm talking abt) Someone said cara tak bertepatan dgn niat, kot. =(

Oleh itu, gomenn and sorry, sister. ='(
I keep telling others, tht just because suara kecik, muka skema, it doesn't mean that I am without my own opinion or fragile/lembut. I can be really tough when push comes to shove; and yes~ that means (pun unintended) shoving people in the direction I want them to go juga. =(
Jd jgn terkejut klu cara Aain tegas, tau. ='(

Nena ada ckp, nk tegur kna berhikmah~

Oleh itu, gomenn again, sister.
Maybe my principles are against yours, but in no way were they aimed dgn sngaja to oppose yours.

Those hopes/ideals were just trophies shined and polished for all of us to work for, ideals that I've considered valuable to put as one of my aims in life.

Bukan nk ckp that I myself possess tht trophy (as in sdr pun tak buat bnda lagho), tp again, just sth yg we should all work for. Gomenn again.

Life is made up of choices; a sequence of events tht take place usually in rsponse to the one before. I'm not saying tht because you hve made a choice (couple ke, for exmple) tht it means you're doomed for all eternity to be in the 'wrong path'. Allah works in ways we will never understand; sometimes a wrong choice leads to better ones in the future, teaching us lessons we wouldn't hve gained if we didn't make that wrong choice. ;)

Tapi.

We also can't afford to always n forever learn from our mistakes. Life is too short to learn everything that way. Unexpected, hidup in penuh with twists and turns tht only Allah can foresee.

Sbb tu Aain pnya aim is to try to make the best choices in life (again, aim bukan suggest dh buat/practice) and to try and minimize potensi blaku 'kemalangan'. Some may say it's a life un-lived. Tapi I say better be safe than sorry.

79:34. Maka apabila malapetaka yang sangat besar (hari kiamat) telah datang.

79:35. Pada hari (ketika) manusia teringat akan apa yang telah dikerjakannya,

79:36. dan diperlihatkan neraka dengan jelas kepada setiap orang yang melihat.

79:37. Adapun orang yang melampaui batas,

79:38. dan lebih mengutamakan kehidupan dunia,

79:39. maka sesungguhnya nerakalah tempat tinggal (nya).

79:40. Dan adapun orang-orang yang takut kepada kebesaran Tuhannya dan menahan diri dari keinginan hawa nafsunya,

79:41. maka sesungguhnya surgalah tempat tinggal (nya).

-An-Naziat.

78:38. Pada hari, ketika ruh dan para malaikat berdiri bersaf-saf, mereka tidak berkata-kata kecuali siapa yang telah diberi izin kepadanya oleh Tuhan Yang Maha Pemurah; dan ia mengucapkan kata yang benar.

78:39. Itulah hari yang pasti terjadi. Maka barang siapa yang menghendaki, niscaya ia menempuh jalan kembali kepada Tuhannya.

78:40. Sesungguhnya Kami telah memperingatkan kepadamu (hai orang kafir) siksa yang dekat, pada hari manusia melihat apa yang telah diperbuat oleh kedua tangannya; dan orang kafir berkata: "Alangkah baiknya sekiranya aku dahulu adalah tanah".

-An-Naba'

Ayat2 di atas, hnya maksud yg jelas shj yg Aain nmpk, yg tersirat, wallahualam~ kalam Allah, kn? ;)

I really hope I haven't stepped on any toes. And tq ukhti, utk teguran. Saranghe abadan abada~
Mcm ayat Abg Anas ex-AlexAcademicTeam;
"May all of us be in the best of iman"

Doakan kjayaan dunia akhirat utk smua, aight, kwn2?

Luv from Alex,
AenPozi.

p/s: tau. tau. tau. =(((( Anat Aain yg tergendala sbb 1 hour asyik fikir bnda pasal bnda ni je. Cranial nerves tak make sense pon sbb fikir bnda ni. See, teguran post lepas utk Aain juga. =(  Kurangkn fikir pasal bnda tak bkaitan stdy. Utk kwn2 Alex~ doakan Anat smua OK orait! ;) Rbbuna yusahhil~ aen.

Existence

Niat: Nak tulis apa yg sedar secara tiba2. Yang mungkin pernah sedar dan faham, tapi sebab banyak sgt titik hitam yang Aain dah biar jatuh atas kain.. Maka, perlu dibersihkan semula. Silap dan salah harap dimaafkan, niat hanya utk menulis apa yg diharap boleh mmbantu. **Ini adalah pendapat semata-mata, yg disusun dlm kata2 utk menimbulkan pemikiran org lain. Sekadar mengajak berfikir bersama. Harap maklum. (erk~ BM teruk. sila ignore, asalkn mmbawa maksud yg Aain hajatkn sudah)

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There's a scene in the movie "Perfume", where the main character secludes himself in an isolated cave. His reason? Hoho, bukan mcm Rasulullah (saw) yang nak mendekatkan diri dgn Allah (doyh, dh namanya setting in France, kan =D ) but because he wants to concentrate his senses fully, on himself and his existence. So he sits in the cave, tak makan, tak minum, but closes his eyes and breathes; in, out~ to focus fully on his existence.

Wah. Sgt 'menakjubkan' bukan? Dh namanya cerita~~ -__-"

Anyway, the main reason knapa Aain ckp bnda tu dlu, bukannya apa~ tapi nak mengajak bersama kot, to just take a moment to REALIZE our existence. Knowing, take note; is very different from realizing that you are now alive. To realize is to be fully conscious of your every breath (jgnlah hyperventilate pulak =P ), what you are feeling with your superficial receptors bwh epidermis tu (try looking at your hands and concentrate at what your receptors are sensing), and to actually think about your binocular vision tuh. Perasan tak, that you are looking at the world through those two eyes, bounded by orbital margins tuh?

I sound like someone yg takde kerja, bukan? =( Tak, ada reason kenapa nak suruh perasan benda2 tu.

Sometimes, we get so caught up in daily activities (classes, EXAMS!, relationships with those around us) that we forget, our existence is not merely to respond and deal with those things yg mmg smpai bila2 will demand our attention (mcm factory workers that keep attending to the mechanical belt that keeps bringing new parts/items to be assembled) ...
Tapi yang kita ni exist for a reason --> Utk live a life yg sgt2 temporary ni the best possible way. Sebab nanti, semua ni will cease to exist bukan? Death is a certainty no human can deny, btul tak? ;)

If we're all given one shot in life je, shouldn't we make the best of it?

Live a life that you'll be proud of to tell to your grandchildren nnti.
Live a life that you won't be ashamed/afraid of to admit is yours time pawagam terbesar kat akhirat nnti ditayangkan dpan smua org.

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1) Deeds yg bagus, buat bnyk2. Utk bekalan nnti kat 'sana'. Utk build character yg bagus in the process juga. You have to admit, you do feel good kalau buat bnda bagus, kan? (Lain dgn riak, ye. Ini adlh self-satisfaction. Remmber when you were little and your mother asked you to fetch sth from the cabinet/store/pantry? And you managed to do it all by yourself? ~kan best feeling tu ;) ) Reward area stimulated, bukan? So next time mesti nak buat lagi skali. Haa~ *bing-bing-bing* --sound effect org menang judi/roda impian =P --- sbb tu org kata, one good deed leads to another. So the next time rasa nak buat bnda bagus, jgn ignore feeling tu sbb org kata skema/nk be outstanding dpan org len/nk mencapab ke. Buat je, niat lillahi taala orait? ;)

"Dan segala kebaikan yg kamu kerjakn utk dirimu akn mendpt pahala di sisi Allah. Sungguh, Allah melihat apa yang kamu kerjakan.." - 2:110

+++ Scoring for exams included, ye =) Ilmu tu nnti nk kita jugak yg nak guna utk treat patient, ne? ;) Kenalah try masukkan jugak dlm brain =D

2) Hidup hanya sekali. Jadi kena experience smua bnda ke? Dancing in the rain? Singing in a concert? Takyah tgk jauh2~ Kehngtan cinta? *eww. basuh mulut!* Kenikmatan makanan? The finest money can buy?

>= (
Sbb hanya sekali tu jelah yg kena jaga betul2. Worldly happiness/indulgences ~bukan ke Allah dah ckp is NOTHING compared to what is promised to Allah's true believers? Have faith in Allah's words.

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JOM! Mintak dr Allah dijauhkan dari melakukan bnda2 lagho/ tak beneficial in life. 

You only live once, why not make the best of it?

;)

Masa itu emas. Hrp2 ini bukan pembaziran masa smata2. Bukan juga alasan utk Aain KIV-kn Hodgkin's lymphoma tu kejap. =( Niat tetap dipegang: utk share apa yg Aain baru ingat/sedar balik tgh2 malam/pagi ni.

Doakan kjayaan bsama, dunia akhirat.

:-*

-Aen@Alex.

What Do YOU Think?

Hrini exam Microbe. Soalan last year, repeated.

Snippets of conversation drift between Colbie's voice singing 'Midnight Bottle' for me ~a review about sem ni as a whole:

Ad yg rasa they've improved.
Ad yg rasa they haven't done as well as they should.
Ad yg rasa they should do better.

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Next exam, Anatomy. Saturday, 6th February.

 

Lazing around with a good storybook. A feeling I'd give anything for skrg ni. Tapi ~not sure I'd feel the same way (ke-smgt-an abt the whole idea) when I actually GET the chance to do it lpas exam nnti.

Bnyk bnda yg nmpk best time2 exam.

Tapi sbnrnya takdelah sgt pon, kan? ;)

FOCUS! =)

Korg... doakan kita smua kheir, bi iznillah. =)
Work hard utk Anat smua. ;)

Ganbatte and goodluck~
Aen@Alex.

p/s: Nena msti bangge tau Aain letak ni:

  

I made this video playlist at myflashfetish.com

Colbie rawks; both at singing and writing her own lyrics. <3

-ovr n out, Aen.

Tawakal

Tadi Physio.

Tiba2 teringat Kak Anis ckp msa SC hritu:

Perumpamaan terbaik klu nk ckp pasal erti tawakal = imagine being in the middle of the ocean, afloat all by yourself, waves crashing around you, skies dark and violent with thunder, with no one to turn to for help...



--CHOT! CHOT! Ayt blom habis! haa~ --> except Allah.

Spenuh-penuhnya, serahkan urusan results tu utk Allah. Kerja Aain utk usaha sbaik mungkin.


Selasa Microbe.
Good luck kwn2 =)

Rbbuna yusahhil,
Doakan kjayaan bersama,
slm~ aen@alex.
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"Org yg berjaya adalah org yg berbaik sangka terhadap usahanya dan menjangkakan kejayaan. Apa yg disangka dlm hati adalah doa dlm senyap." -Razzi al Mansur.

"Allah tempat pergantungan segala sesuatu" (112:2)

*cilok from PERUBATAN planner. teehee~ best kan? ;D 10 LE je! Belilah dr Yaya~ pengedar brg2 PERUBATAN cwgn Alex! =D

Senang

I still remember kot. It was 12 am-ish, kat rumah lama. Pre-PMR process of burning the midnight oil. *cehh~ berkepul-kepul kot, asap 'midnight oil' tu. Tapi buat Aain tertido jelah kot, slalu ='( *

"Mak, macam mana eh, nak semangat study? Kaklong tu semangat je..."

Mak was doing apa ye, at that moment? Jahit sth ke? Watching telly ke? That detail is a little blurry on me skarang. But when she looked at me kot, raising her eyes from whatever she was doing tu, she gave me a hard look and said:

"How much Angah nak benda tu sebenarnya?"








I think the proper response (if this were a novel) would be that I'd fall silent at what she said and start crying, repent my mistakes and start the next day with a BANG! Become rajin sgt2 lah lepas tu~
Then, I go on to be successful forever and ever in my life~

Kot.
If this were a novel.





Tapi, years and years after, even sekarang kot~
I have to honestly say,

Maybe I haven't learnt anything from that night.

3 days to finals.
Kuatkan semangat.
Remind yourself how much you really want to get that 'A' tu. Why you want to get 'A' tu.

You only start walking when you've set your heart and mind on a certain destination, bukan?
Di sini sama shj.

Best of luck, kwn2.
Rabbuna yusahhil~

slm, Aen@Alex.